I'm almost finished with the application process for art school. I still have to write an artist statement and photograph the pieces for portfolio. Then I just have to wait and see. If I get in, great I go to school. If I don't then I will pick my bruised ass up and proceed to plan B(note to self: dearest self, please, please, please make a plan B).
I'm almost done but for some reason I don't feel like relief from all the pressure I'm under is coming any time soon. If anything I know feel more pressured. I want so many things for myself and everyday that I don't do something extraordinay I feel is a waste. Honestly I can't name one thing that I'm doing daily that I would label as extraodinary. The things I'm doing(ie: my job, working towards getting back in school) are things I think I should be doing, but they don't make me happy.
But with so many people living there dream, right in front of me, I can't fool myself into thinking that I can't do the same thing anymore. I just have to find away to do it....
When it comes to my schooling I've always felt frustrated. I've always felt like I was stupid because I couldn't learn the way I was "supposed" to be. If anyone was actually paying attention when I was younger they probably would have tried to slap an ADHD label on me but they weren't. Which I'm marginally thankful for fyi.
In my case since no one was paying attention I simple through up some walls and held up shop in my head. In the video above Sir Ken Robinson explains the difference between a aesthetic and an anaesthetic experience. With no one around to wake me UP I had a very anaesthetic experience in school.
Sir Robinson also talks about how the current system was made for a different age. When he said this I snorted loudly and through in a nice "NO SHIT" for good measure. I think it's been quite clear for sometime now that the way the educational system is set up isn't right. Now I feel like I should mention here since I'm hating on the system that I'm currently applying to go back to school(I've been out for one semester). Everyday I wake up and ask myself "Why?" I don't think that a formal education = a job in this day and age (actually I know it doesn't) BUT I'm holding on to the hope that:
I'm not going to be waisting my time
That some how, even if I don't get a degree, I'll learn something that can help me survive in this economy.
But enough about me. There are some key points that Sir Robinson said that I wanted to point out:
Great learning happens in groups. Collaboration is the stuff of growth.
Anaesthetic: shutting your senses off; deaden yourself to whats happening.
We are getting our children through education by anaesthetising them.
We should be waking them UP to whats inside of themselves.
I was feeling very blue last week(or was it weeks?). It was very confusing to go to sleep one day literally vibrating with happiness, just to wake up and feel horrible! With no idea why. But that was then, and I'm feeling much better now!
Eureka! I did it (the girl is the transfer). I think the first time didn't work out because I used so much water to rub the image that I started to tear the paper and gave up. This time I when the paper looked like it might tear I waited until it dried a bit then went back in. There's a bit of tearing on the girls shirt but I like it.