Friday, December 31, 2010
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Thursday, December 23, 2010
"If you are at first lonely, be patient. If you've not been alone much, or if when you were, you weren't okay with it, then just wait. You'll find it's fine to be alone once you're embracing it.
We could start with the acceptable places, the bathroom, the coffee shop, the library. Where you can stall and read the paper, where you can get your caffeine fix and sit and stay there. Where you can browse the stacks and smell the books. You're not supposed to talk much anyway so it's safe there.
There's also the gym. If you're shy you could hang out with yourself in mirrors, you could put headphones in (guitar stroke).
And there's public transportation, because we all gotta go places.
And there's prayer and meditation. No one will think less if you're hanging with your breath seeking peace and salvation.
Start simple. Things you may have previously (electric guitar plucking) based on your avoid being alone principals.
The lunch counter. Where you will be surrounded by chow-downers. Employees who only have an hour and their spouses work across town and so they -- like you -- will be alone.
Resist the urge to hang out with your cell phone.
When you are comfortable with eat lunch and run, take yourself out for dinner. A restaurant with linen and silverware. You're no less intriguing a person when you're eating solo dessert to cleaning the whipped cream from the dish with your finger. In fact some people at full tables will wish they were where you were.
Go to the movies. Where it is dark and soothing. Alone in your seat amidst a fleeting community.
And then, take yourself out dancing to a club where no one knows you. Stand on the outside of the floor till the lights convince you more and more and the music shows you. Dance like no one's watching...because, they're probably not. And, if they are, assume it is with best of human intentions. The way bodies move genuinely to beats is, after all, gorgeous and affecting. Dance until you're sweating, and beads of perspiration remind you of life's best things, down your back like a brook of blessings.
Go to the woods alone, and the trees and squirrels will watch for you.
Go to an unfamiliar city, roam the streets, there're always statues to talk to and benches made for sitting give strangers a shared existence if only for a minute and these moments can be so uplifting and the conversations you get in by sitting alone on benches might've never happened had you not been there by yourself
Society is afraid of alonedom, like lonely hearts are wasting away in basements, like people must have problems if, after a while, nobody is dating them. but lonely is a freedom that breaths easy and weightless and lonely is healing if you make it.
You could stand, swathed by groups and mobs or hold hands with your partner, look both further and farther for the endless quest for company. But no one's in your head and by the time you translate your thoughts, some essence of them may be lost or perhaps it is just kept.
Perhaps in the interest of loving oneself, perhaps all those sappy slogans from preschool over to high school's groaning were tokens for holding the lonely at bay. Cuz if you're happy in your head than solitude is blessed and alone is okay.
It's okay if no one believes like you. All experience is unique, no one has the same synapses, can't think like you, for this be releived, keeps things interesting lifes magic things in reach.
And it doesn't mean you're not connected, that communitie's not present, just take the perspective you get from being one person in one head and feel the effects of it. take silence and respect it. if you have an art that needs a practice, stop neglecting it. if your family doesn't get you, or religious sect is not meant for you, don't obsess about it.
you could be in an instant surrounded if you needed it
If your heart is bleeding make the best of it
There is heat in freezing, be a testament."
I'm going to print this out and frame it! I've always liked being alone. I find happiness and peace in doing things on my own. Like going to the movies or out to dinner. It's true though that society makes you feel like maybe there's something wrong with you because you crave solitude. I like being alone and think I know how to do it. But just incase I ever forget I'll have this!
View video here.
A la prochaine!
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
So as you guys may know starting January 1st I'm going to be doing Project 365. In the middle of last week I made the decision to make a book and do this project. That's big, and I'm very proud of my self! I've been trying to figure out how I wanted to approach the project. Digital or film photographs. I'm crazy about film photography, more specifically instant photography. I was devastated when Polaroid stopped making film, but very excited about Fuji's new instant film cameras.
I decided that I want to do the whole project using this camera. It would be great! It would help me become a better photographer. It would help me with the tiny problem I have with creating something every day. The only problem I have is funding this project. I HATE asking for anything! I'm a prideful creature, and along with that pride is the tiny pessimistic voice that I carry around with me. My main problem is that I can talk myself out of anything! I also come from a family of pessimistic individuals. I say that pessimism is our religious view, they don't like that.... I started doing some research in hopes of finding some inspiration, and some way of funding my project with out feeling like I'm begging.
I found this web site called Kickstarter, where you can ask people to help you fund creative projects. Score!! I found out about it when my friend sent me a link to her project. View it here. I've been working on writing my project out. I'm very good when it comes to talking about something, but have a hard time getting it on paper. Send some positivity my way and I promise to continue battling my pessimistic ways.
A la prochaine!
Sunday, December 19, 2010
I brought my friends Ipod touch last week. Actually if I'm being honest I'm still paying it off. She pretty much put every album Weezer has made on it. I've fallen in love with Ratitude. I really can't stop listening to it.
Saturday, December 18, 2010
I really want to create a documentary...I have for a very long time. Maybe this will be something I try to do after I finish Project 365. One thing at a time. On a side note: Did notice me in the second film? I'm very blessed to have met or know people that have made these documentaries or are in them.
A la prochaine!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
I've been trying to figure out a photo project to start while I'm not in school for winter break. I've been throwing around these big ideas that I just won't have time to fully commit myself too. I have heard about project 365 many times, but I guess I thought it was too simple for me to do (because I'm so great, Ha). Anyway, why would I won't to do something everyone else has done? Example one of how I lie to myself.
Well today I decided that:
- I want to write a book.
- I want to make a book filled with my photographs, if for nothing else then to put on my bookshelf.
I'm going to start this project on January 1, 2011. I'm not going to post every photo I take on the internet because I may wind up selling the book. Anythings possible right! Wish me luck!
A la prochaine(until next time, it's French!!) ;-)
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
- Resist the urge to run home grab cameras and explore, explore, explore!
- Leave computer lab, go to library and attempt to study for last two finals tomorrow evening
- 7pm tonight, a free show at Therapy Wine Bar in Brooklyn, NY with Selzin. Gotta love live music!
- Finish sketchbook
- Find Brian Wren, my tattoo artist
- Draw tattoo ideas
- Make an appointment to get new ink!
Sunday, December 12, 2010
I really like doing these music post. They help me find and listen to new music. I'll never be able to listen to Single Ladies with out thinking of this version! I'm going to try and do this every Sunday. I hope you enjoy!
A la prochaine ;-)
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Birth name: Timothy Selzin Nafziger Artist Name :Selzin (pronounced sel-zon-just because) aka timothy tha ol'skoola aka calzone
Where are you from?
Surprisingly Earth. Born in England, raised in Jos, Nigeria til the age of 13, then moved to Columbus, Ohio (C-bus) migrated south to Florida for a few years, then back to Ohio. And of course now Brooklyn!
What do you call yourself (writer, rapper, photographer, etc)?
Ambiguous. An artist. Poet. Emcee. Dreamer.
How do you create (your inspiration)?
People around me inspire me. My surroundings engulf me. Mediocrity annoys me. War grips me. Race does not define me. Rivers flow and carry elements with them. I am one of them. People are music-pulsing, walking, dancing, stuttering, panting, screaming, yelling, screeching, whispering. Shhh, can you hear it? My art defines me. Music aligns me
Why do you do it?
For the love. To prove a point. To strike a chord. To start a revolution in 3 and a half minutes. To expose the truth. To let go. To let in. To engage.
Are you currently working on anything?
Always. Working on a hip hop project that is gonna consist of a lot of alliteration. I have also been writing a decent amount of introspective poetry recently. Starting a new band. I will be hosting a monthly showcase @ Therapy wine bar, next show is Dec 14th, 7pm sharp-10pm.
Advice you would give a young Artist?
Don't let substance, women, or negative feedback get in the way of your goal. Learn from the criticism you collect. Write with no limitations. NEVER throw away your art. Years later you will be able to pick and choose from these pieces. Be yourself. Adapt but do not conform.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Sorry no food photography. I was to busy stuffing my face. I went to Yonkers to see my Aunt. On Saturday I went to my lovely friend Amanda's place for a "not-a-party" dance-off! I had an AMAZING time!!
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
SO I've been trying to find some art exhibits to go to. I really like going to the open reception's. I love hearing what other people have to say about the art. It's how I learn. I went looking for some opening reception's online for this month and found this web site here. I'm really excited about this because they have listings for not only areas of NY , but also places like Chicago and LA. Places I will visit someday!